Saturday, October 25, 2008

Drudgery of life

I missed last weeks blog post. That seems to be the theme of this last week: lack of accomplishing goals. I know, I know, here he goes again bitching about his life. He has a job, a car, a home, enough to eat, he's meeting his bills (mostly) and yet he still bitches about how bad his life sucks.

To be honest, I know that my life isn't that bad. HONEST! Still, I try not to spill my vitriol all over my colleagues, friends and family. I use this place to come and sound off about things that I don't like in my life or more importantly things I want to improve about my life.

Overall I'm doing well in my life. I have Jen who loves me and accepts me for who I am, a truly exceptional and extraordinary gift.

I know that I have a job. However, I am not happy with where I am right now. I want to move up the ladder, so to speak, but it isn't working so well right now. I have been in my current position for almost three years now. I'm approximately two and a half months shy of that right now (Early January) I'm curious why I have gone anywhere right. I'm not used to not getting jobs that I want. Sadly, there is a glut of qualified people and I'm not as qualified as I need to be. I'll just keep on trying.

This week has been a bit rough. I've been under a bit of pressure, mostly self imposed. I'll get over it, however, it was still taxing. My co-worker is leaving for two weeks. This past Friday was her last day before leaving. This, too, will add some pressure on me. It will be up to me to keep everything running. Again, honestly, it won't be too bad. But, it will be additional work on top of what I'm already doing.

I've really been reflecting on what it means to be a writer. I haven't been writing much lately, quite a bit going on in my head, but nothing is flowing out to the paper. This is making my call into question if I am a writer or just an imaginative quack. Writers write.

Overall, things are going well and will continue to be so.

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